I arrived in Medellin, Colombia on November 13th. Exactly 6 months later, on May 13th, I’m leaving Medellin. Who knew it would work out like that. I like sub-headings:
I’ve learned that Sweden is very much not South America. People are tall, blond, and speak perfect English. Everything is insanely expensive. I don’t feel like I’m going to die when I cross the street. The sun is up before 4am and sets well after 9pm. Busses are very quiet and don’t roar by, spewing black smoke. Someone has actually mistaken me for a local. That happened zero times in South America.
I’m currently in Uppsala, Sweden visiting my little brother for the end of his study abroad year. It actually worked out very well because he stays with his girlfriend most nights (who lives WAY closer to the school/town). So I’ve basically taken over his dorm room. It feels a little weird to be the random 26-year old guy cooking in the dorm kitchen.
I’m here a few more weeks and then off to Longyearbyen, Norway for a few days, then to Berlin! I’ve got housing locked down for all of June, and during that time I’ll be looking for something more permanent. I should be in Germany until it starts getting cold, and then I have no idea where I’m going after that. There was some talk among friends about renting a killer pad in Bali for a month, and South Africa. Or I could do my Spanish immersion experiment (see the Spanish sub-heading).
Over the last month, I have actually been inspired to write more. The only problem is that the moments when I have lightbulb ideas, I’m never in a place where I can write that idea down and develop it. (Bus going down a windy road, about to fall asleep, shower, out for a run, getting onto an airplane, out drinking with friends, etc.) Also, a lot of these ideas are pretty obscure and trying to string them coherently into blog posts, articles, essays or even a novel would be a challenge for a moonlight writer like myself. Lastly, a lot of these thoughts and ideas are too vague and meaningless without context. Context that I don’t always wish to share.
I’ve been writing a lot more in my personal journal. I’ve actually found journaling to be very therapeutic. It’s very interesting that I’m embarrassed to put stuff in there when I know that I’m the only person who reads it. Am I hiding stuff from myself? Maybe I’m just embarrassed when I actually form these thoughts into words. Strange. It’s also great to be able to look back several years and see how I was feeling about something. The brain has an incredible ability to “forget” how we felt about experiences.
I’ve actually had several moments where I’ve been inspired to write a story of some sort. Every idea I’ve had would be a first-person narrative that parallels my own life with myself as the main character. I feel like its a little ego-centric, but whatever, nobody is being forced to read it. And every time I try to start anything, I type a few words out and delete everything. This is repeated a few times until I re-decide that writing stories is not my thing. I did spend a lot of time recently with an incredible writer, so maybe its just her rubbing off on me. Maybe I’ll just start by writing for my private collection only.
I burnt out in February and couldn’t shake it until I left South America. I had a really crappy experience one day in Peru in February and since then, was too frustrated with myself to be excited about Spanish. I think it was mainly due to the fact that I thought I should have been much better by then, and I was still struggling. After leaving, I’m realizing that my Spanish isn’t that bad, and I was just being too hard on myself. Also, I lived and spent most of my time with English speakers, so it’s no wonder that my Spanish didn’t improve much faster.
I’d really like to become fluent in Spanish, but I know that will never happen until I’m forced to use Spanish and only Spanish. My plan is to live in a Spanish-speaking country for 3 months, but speak zero English. I’ll be living with Spanish-only speakers and try to get involved in some sort of organization that does everything in Spanish. It will take a bit of research to set this up.
I’ve been bumming around as a backpacker for over 7 weeks straight now. This is not conducive to business at all, however I’ve been able to stay afloat. I’ve been getting more and more ideas and more excited about living in one spot for a significant amount of time so I can buckle down and start taking my business to where I really want it.
I’ve also been realizing which aspects of my business I enjoy. I’ve found that I don’t enjoy the sales side of things. I don’t enjoy squeezing every last dollar out of my site. I much more enjoy the programming/development side of my business. Setting up systems and creating a more user-friendly resource, etc. Statistics. Data. Etc. More to come on this in a later post when I can develop what I’m talking about a little further.
So I have an awesome camera on my phone (Google Nexus 4) so I’ve been taking a lot more. However now I’ve found out I’m terrible at organizing these photos after I’ve taken them. So you just get one picture of Sweden for now (above).